If anyone knows me, or have read some of these blog entries, then they would know that I suffer from ADD. I am (almost…good lord) 35, and it has taken me my whole life to find my own ways of doing things: To stay organized, to stay on task, to stay motivated, to stick with something. In a previous post, I mentioned what it’s like to have ADD, in my world. You can read about it here, Snow Days, ADD, and Anxiety.
This year, I stuck to it, for the most part. I haven’t given up on training, or trying to be active. I stuck to my guns, and didn’t eat pasta or rice AT ALL. I gave up drinking all alcohol (except for the few tiny sips here and there to help taste test new craft brews…oh how I miss beer!). Sure, I have my moments where I give into myself a little. We don’t need to call it cheating, or slipping up, because in reality- this is life!! Shit happens!! Birthdays, holidays, celebrations of all kinds… days when you just need something to make you feel better… we all have those. You’re not cheating. You’re living. So, in 365 days, I have definitely allowed myself to ‘live’, but I have also given myself the opportunity to succeed, in ways I never thought I could.
Now, all of this is tacky, sentimental crap, is building up to something that seems so dumb, but to me: This. Is. Success.
For 365 days, for one whole year, I have tracked my food in the app “My Fitness Pal”. Everything I eat. Every recipe I ever came up with (BTW: If I post a recipe on here, you can search for it under the brand name “Allys Own” on MFP). Every ounce of chicken I weighed, or grape I counted out, was tracked. I had my times where it would have been too much to track, like I said before, it’s not a slip up. I was aware that maybe I wasn’t doing the best eating, or I was out to a restaurant and it was easier to just track a well-educated rounded number of calories, vs. actual food items; But, this wasn’t habit. Habit was entering food as I ate it. Searching for nutrition facts online. Creating recipes, and adding them into the app. That was habit.
Secretly, deep down, I couldn’t wait for the moment the app told me that I had tracked for 365 days. I literally wanted balloons to fly across the screen….but they didn’t. I just got a quick update on my app that said, ‘you’ve tracked for 365 days’. Well, that was disappointing- but none the less… I DID IT!!! ADD be damned!!!! I stuck to something!
They say it takes 21 days to create a new habit. I would like to adjust that for myself. I’m pretty sure that maybe at the three month mark is when things become second nature, for me. So, here’s to 365 more days of tracking. Here’s to 365 more days of working hard for a better me. Here’s to 365 more days of living my life, and letting funny shit happen, so I can keep writing about it.
…and no, I don’t want to be friends with you on MFP. Find me somewhere else. The only person who has access to seeing this crap is my nutritionist!! 😉