And The Winner Is…

A week ago, or so, I posted an image of three shirts, on facebook.  I asked friends to choose which one they thought would be the best new addition to my gym shirt collection.


After some serious voting, and reasons why I should own whichever shirt they thought was best, I have a winner.

I have worn this shirt to training to see Franz, who took a picture of me in it (face excluded because who the fuck knows who he’d show it to), and then he laughed at me.  I also plan to wear it to my next adventure, which you will be hearing about VERY soon!

So, without further ado, DRUM ROLL PLEASE…..

IMG_1512I am (obviously):


Someone who likes the idea of being fit, but also really likes food.

See also: Semi-fit, kind of fit.


I’d like to thank each and every one of my friends who took the time to ‘vote’ on this very important decision.  I am proud to be able to say that I am wearing a shirt that my FGW fans chose for me! 😉

Get Out And Wun.


P.S. I still have the first shirt in my Amazon shopping cart…. just in case.


You Got A Friend In Me…

Or not.  (stick with me, this is lengthy, but worth it)

A few posts ago, I mentioned that when you lose weight, or change your lifestyle, it seems that so many other things change along with it.

For real.  I had no idea how losing weight, and changing my bad habits, would affect the people around me.  Most of the amazing people in my life understand that this is the best thing for me, and do their best to support me.  Some don’t.

I mean to an extent, I can understand why some people start to pull away.  When you’re used to going out to eat with someone, and having drinks, and talking about weight and how you wish you could lose some, and stuffing your face with crappy food because you wallow about your life together- it must be hard when someone in that relationship changes, and doesn’t do any of that anymore.

What doesn’t make sense to me, is that if you’re ‘good friends’ with someone, and you have shared some seriously intimate parts of your life with them, and you have supported each other through thick and thin, that that ‘good friend’ would disappear, instead of being there for you, when you decided to be the best version of yourself.


For me and my friendship, it started out great.  This person was by my side every step of the way on this journey.  She would tell me that she would support me, and instead of drinking and going out to eat when we hung out, we could go walking, or get a coffee!  She was so supportive, caring, loving.  She even bought me a bunch of really helpful things for my weightless journey, including shaker bottles, and a journal, among other amazing items.  That sounds like the kind of person you would want in your corner, when you decide to change your life for the better, right?  That’s what I thought, too.

Apparently I’m wrong.  I’m still not quite sure what happened, or even why it happened.  I can’t seem to put my finger on one specific event that may have triggered the downfall of our relationship.  In fact, there wasn’t even a downfall.  It just stopped.  Everything STOPPED.  No more support.  No more encouragement.  No more spending time together.  Even our daily (all day, every day) texts stopped.  I mean, completely out of the blue.  Done.

Sometimes, I think about it and get really deep in my thoughts, and start beating myself up.  What if I hadn’t started to take care of myself?  What if I kept going out with her to bars, just like we have for years and years?  What if I didn’t change?  Would she still be by my side?  And then I have to remind myself that I am doing this for ME.  First and foremost, I needed to be healthy again.  I would do this all over, in a heartbeat, even knowing that I would lose one of the closest, most important people to me.

Maybe someday she will wander back into my life, and I will be able to put this behind me, and reconnect.  Maybe I’ll even find out what really happened and why I lost her in the first place.  Maybe… but if I don’t, I have to remind myself, that what’s happened, happened.  What’s done, is done.

I am healthy.  I am working on being happy.  If people don’t support that, then there is no space for them in my life.  In fact, even if I wasn’t on this journey, I wouldn’t be able to keep someone like that, around me.  No one should.

We live in a society where the number of Facebook ‘friends’, or Instagram followers you have, defines how… I don’t know, popular you are?  Maybe well liked?  I don’t know.  I just know that recently, in light of this loss of friendship, I have deleted many people from my Facebook friends list.  I am done pretending to be friends.  I want genuine, real, supportive, amazing, happy, positive people around me.  Period.

Was this entry a downer?  I hope not.  Writing it was therapeutic. I got this off my chest, and out of my head.  Everyone should be able to share their struggles. Everyone should feel supported when they need it most.  End of story.


As weird as it is, and as much as I share in my blogs, it was hard for me to show a true before and ‘after’ (or as I’d like to call it, DURING) picture to my Facebook family.  I know how strange that sounds, considering this is coming from a person who literally writes the ridiculous things that happens during her work outs.  I mean, I’m not afraid to show you my sweaty face, tell you that I have been crapped on by a bird; But showing this picture, makes me feel super vulnerable.

When I posted this picture, I was nervous.  BUT, the response was amazing.  Overwhelming, in fact.  People can see the difference, they can see the changes, and they are interested.  They are moved.  It’s kind of come full circle with me.  This blog started as a joke with my best friend, and my mom.  A place to start writing out the dumb things I go through/think/do during my work outs.  The response I received on here, made me feel like I was helping at least ONE person.  So, here I am again.  Nervous to make it public, but excited to see the response.

The new me.  -22lbs and 31 inches SO FAR.  So much to go… but what an awesome start!


The left is one week before I started, while on vacation in the Dominican.  The right is 35 days into my new life.  Heathy, clean eating, and working my ass off just a little bit more at the gym!